异地生活（思乡）

整体来说，自己一个人在国外也算是生活了两年，分别错过了三个农历新年（其中之一是即将到来的）。有所谓的homesick吗？理智性地回答：没有。也许自己心里最清楚，无论如何我还是得一个人在异乡生活，homesick 也没用，所以独立了，强迫自己适应了。也可能潜意识里不去想了……

在澳洲，人人看重的是工作经验，所以大部分的人读完学士文凭以后都不继续念了。再加上developed country （谷歌翻译‘发达国家’）的父母鼓励孩子高中以后自己养活自己，自己选择科系，这两种现象是和大马的背道而驰。因此自己念硕士文凭时，遇着的都是亚洲人。再者，自己念的又是商科主修会计，95%来求学都是来自中国。这样的现象，重重地粉碎了自己想象中到国外求学的情景。自己也算是较为不幸，到了在大马不怎么出名的大学，也遇不了相同遭遇的同志，没能结伴，有些可惜……回头想，喜欢‘实验性’地下厨是不在外用餐的原因之一，省钱是原因之二，也有可能是不想为每次外出时都得找伴这事而伤脑筋。

独自一个人来求学的生活更显得寂寞。也问过不少一个人定居在这里的大马年轻人“一个人在这里不想家吗？”“都习惯了”。起初我还体会不到那所谓的“习惯”，觉得要“习惯”这孤寂真的让我浑身不自在。结果在没能回家的这一年里，自己终于明白那“习惯”的感觉。说不出的悲哀，淡淡的、涩涩的，为了明天继续过活，不断地在寻找寄托。否则那一丝丝的苦涩沁入心扉，像有细缝的气球，精力就缓缓地被外压汲取。

在家至少可以和老妈作伴。闲来喝喝下午茶、天花乱坠地瞎闹一场、在花园里散步，甚至静静地感受家人的存在。每逢过年过节，家人自然都会回乡探访长辈，团聚了分散在各地的亲戚。有时想起同年的朋友在职场上已打拼了两年，升职的升职、恋爱的恋爱、结婚的结婚。反之自己刚毕业，为了寻工而准备再虚度一年。在起跑点上，慢了别人三年，前途会是怎样的一片情景？

在外地求生，并非想象中的简单。许多事物总得自己经历了以后才发现“待遇”这回事，从来不曾公平过。处于这种劣势的地位，往往都会忆起自己土生土长的家，即使那‘大’的家不比澳洲来得先进发达。

#100 Appreciation: You (And Me)

Well, if I address 'You', I sound so confident, since I expected 'You' as readers came to my blog and follow my post, which almost certain, this is not the case.

So, I end up thanking myself, for really committing is this despite that this is unrelated to academics or jobs and I still commit in completing this, without any return. So, I end up thanking myself for constantly doing this. I do run out of ideas at times, and I had delayed numerous time on the post, yet contemplate to complete what I have started.

I take pride in my principle despite that I am 'suffering' by it by starting too many things at once. Being capable in doing this, eg, joining 100 Days Project and keep up within the 100 days for 100 Appreciations, 100 blogposts, is a great achievements. Although I hope that I can drive some traffic to my site as well :)

One thing out of the bucket list then!

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#99 Appreciation: Malaysia

*Ignore politics*

A place rich with culture, resources and food.
We have great delicacies, dances, celebrations, languages and also a fusion of everything. Is just the unique scenario and experience to have. No one can understand "Eh Kawan, jom Dinner kat restaurant ABC, dai kor kata tu ho jiak", if you are not one of them or staying long enough to understand the 'languages'

Is a great place to stay with, with different ethnicity friends, hanging out together, learning each other languages, eating each other traditional home-cook meals, celebrating each other festivals... Is just a colourful journey!

The sad fact she is being gradually 'destroyed' by those who are ruling her...

p/s: The death of 8 years old Yemen girl on her wedding night with her 40 years old husband news is a heated topic lately. To add on, I just feel glad that I am not born in that sort of society and I am healthily raised by my beloved family today.

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#98 Appreciation: Family

I am thankful to have all my family members with living healthily and share my life journey with me, especially I am not prepare enough to face any 'separation', although often or not, is not one's call.

Besides my parents and siblings, I have plenty of aunts and uncles, and I specially felt for my single aunt, who has treated me and my brother as if we are her kids. She hardly resist our request, and she always is the one who fulfil our wishes. Sounds like Santa isn't? There is another well-to-do uncle, who treat us like buddy every time we meet. We always tease him, and ask him to buy us dinner (somehow he know all the great food places). Also, all charming cousins I have.

To extend the family range, I also grateful to have such nice grandparents, who gave birth to our parents and brought them up after all the struggles, before the country gain independence. Also, treat us much better than how they raise our parents (much stricter of course) :)

Love all of you~~

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#97 Appreciation: Children

Got this 'Appreciation' from my mum.

She told me she is thankful to have children (me I assumed XD) although she has went through all those hard times and even has the post effect of going through operations. It has been a wonderful journey, raising kids and witnessing them growing and become a person with reliable and independent character, a citizen of the world. Not to forget the laughter and 'speechless' moment throughout the experiences, the ups and downs, yet it is a life journey worth having.

I love you as always too mum! Thanks for bringing me to this world :)

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