#24 Appreciation: Perseverance

Determination and perseverance, attributes that worth for me to further improve in. I am not as strong-will in certain aspect but I believe I will gradually improve as long as I desired it so badly. I am a person that prefer certainty, so I always want to get things laid out properly and being planned in advance. I cant wait, which makes me wanted to know the end result as quickly as possible, although I do procrastinate a little especially during the stress out/burn out period, and I tend to get distracted a lil.

That is the time my will is being challenged, to focus or to relax. I also discover that when I am nervous or fear, I will be distracted and to do some other items. Focus, focus, focus! The more I want, it seems further apart. It stroke me so badly when I watched the movie "The Green Lantern" (I am quite a late adopter).

"Fear is the enemy of will. Will is what makes you take action; fear is what stops you, and makes you weak... makes your constructs feeble."

"You must ignore your fear. When you're afraid, you can't act - you can't act, you can't defend - you can't defend, you die!"

Such beautiful quotes just continuously echoing inside my head and it made me realized that my will is not strong enough because I afraid I fail. I cant maintain my diet/exe, because I afraid that even though I tried I still dont get obvious result. I start to doubt about all my actions and efforts and I fear to not live up to expectation. I self analysed about my past and I found that my failure in my Standard 3 (Year 6) had made fear of failure to live up to one's expectation. That could be the reason that the further I go, the possibility for me to stop and not completing it (avoidance?). Now that I realized, I want to step out of it, train myself to be more strong willed, and challenge myself to be confident and succeed in it.

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