Saturday, December 28, 2013

异地生活(思乡)

整体来说,自己一个人在国外也算是生活了两年,分别错过了三个农历新年(其中之一是即将到来的)。有所谓的homesick吗?理智性地回答:没有。也许自己心里最清楚,无论如何我还是得一个人在异乡生活,homesick 也没用,所以独立了,强迫自己适应了。也可能潜意识里不去想了……

在澳洲,人人看重的是工作经验,所以大部分的人读完学士文凭以后都不继续念了。再加上developed country (谷歌翻译‘发达国家’)的父母鼓励孩子高中以后自己养活自己,自己选择科系,这两种现象是和大马的背道而驰。因此自己念硕士文凭时,遇着的都是亚洲人。再者,自己念的又是商科主修会计,95%来求学都是来自中国。这样的现象,重重地粉碎了自己想象中到国外求学的情景。自己也算是较为不幸,到了在大马不怎么出名的大学,也遇不了相同遭遇的同志,没能结伴,有些可惜……回头想,喜欢‘实验性’地下厨是不在外用餐的原因之一,省钱是原因之二,也有可能是不想为每次外出时都得找伴这事而伤脑筋。

独自一个人来求学的生活更显得寂寞。也问过不少一个人定居在这里的大马年轻人“一个人在这里不想家吗?”“都习惯了”。起初我还体会不到那所谓的“习惯”,觉得要“习惯”这孤寂真的让我浑身不自在。结果在没能回家的这一年里,自己终于明白那“习惯”的感觉。说不出的悲哀,淡淡的、涩涩的,为了明天继续过活,不断地在寻找寄托。否则那一丝丝的苦涩沁入心扉,像有细缝的气球,精力就缓缓地被外压汲取。

在家至少可以和老妈作伴。闲来喝喝下午茶、天花乱坠地瞎闹一场、在花园里散步,甚至静静地感受家人的存在。每逢过年过节,家人自然都会回乡探访长辈,团聚了分散在各地的亲戚。有时想起同年的朋友在职场上已打拼了两年,升职的升职、恋爱的恋爱、结婚的结婚。反之自己刚毕业,为了寻工而准备再虚度一年。在起跑点上,慢了别人三年,前途会是怎样的一片情景?

在外地求生,并非想象中的简单。许多事物总得自己经历了以后才发现“待遇”这回事,从来不曾公平过。处于这种劣势的地位,往往都会忆起自己土生土长的家,即使那‘大’的家不比澳洲来得先进发达。

Saturday, September 14, 2013

#100 Appreciation: You (And Me)

Well, if I address 'You', I sound so confident, since I expected 'You' as readers came to my blog and follow my post, which almost certain, this is not the case.

So, I end up thanking myself, for really committing is this despite that this is unrelated to academics or jobs and I still commit in completing this, without any return. So, I end up thanking myself for constantly doing this. I do run out of ideas at times, and I had delayed numerous time on the post, yet contemplate to complete what I have started.

I take pride in my principle despite that I am 'suffering' by it by starting too many things at once. Being capable in doing this, eg, joining 100 Days Project and keep up within the 100 days for 100 Appreciations, 100 blogposts, is a great achievements. Although I hope that I can drive some traffic to my site as well :)

One thing out of the bucket list then!

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#99 Appreciation: Malaysia

*Ignore politics*

A place rich with culture, resources and food.
We have great delicacies, dances, celebrations, languages and also a fusion of everything. Is just the unique scenario and experience to have. No one can understand "Eh Kawan, jom Dinner kat restaurant ABC, dai kor kata tu ho jiak", if you are not one of them or staying long enough to understand the 'languages'

Is a great place to stay with, with different ethnicity friends, hanging out together, learning each other languages, eating each other traditional home-cook meals, celebrating each other festivals... Is just a colourful journey!

The sad fact she is being gradually 'destroyed' by those who are ruling her...

p/s: The death of 8 years old Yemen girl on her wedding night with her 40 years old husband news is a heated topic lately. To add on, I just feel glad that I am not born in that sort of society and I am healthily raised by my beloved family today.

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#98 Appreciation: Family

I am thankful to have all my family members with living healthily and share my life journey with me, especially I am not prepare enough to face any 'separation', although often or not, is not one's call.

Besides my parents and siblings, I have plenty of aunts and uncles, and I specially felt for my single aunt, who has treated me and my brother as if we are her kids. She hardly resist our request, and she always is the one who fulfil our wishes. Sounds like Santa isn't? There is another well-to-do uncle, who treat us like buddy every time we meet. We always tease him, and ask him to buy us dinner (somehow he know all the great food places). Also, all charming cousins I have.

To extend the family range, I also grateful to have such nice grandparents, who gave birth to our parents and brought them up after all the struggles, before the country gain independence. Also, treat us much better than how they raise our parents (much stricter of course) :)

Love all of you~~

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#97 Appreciation: Children

Got this 'Appreciation' from my mum.

She told me she is thankful to have children (me I assumed XD) although she has went through all those hard times and even has the post effect of going through operations. It has been a wonderful journey, raising kids and witnessing them growing and become a person with reliable and independent character, a citizen of the world. Not to forget the laughter and 'speechless' moment throughout the experiences, the ups and downs, yet it is a life journey worth having.

I love you as always too mum! Thanks for bringing me to this world :)

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#96 Appreciation: Job

I used to dream of being a billionaire, a philosopher,  a Nobel prize winner, an author etc...

Coming back to reality, it is never easy to get that dream job. Too many people shared the same dream, and depending on your location, your presentation, your luck etc.

Living abroad and to secure a job (especially to secure a relevant job) is not as simply as ABC. It requires extensive hard work and to be mentally prepared for not being treated the same as the rest. I used rule out the job that is non-relevant to my background since I have faith in my capabilities and achievements. Like mentioned, we are at many disadvantages by simply based on the fact that we are not residents (although we would like to be one) and begin to accept whatever offer as time passed.

I found one job after 1.5 years and I appreciate the job opportunity although it might not being highly valued by the people, yet it enables me to earn a living and surviving within my needs, also, learning something totally new that I have never thought before :)

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Friday, September 13, 2013

#95 Appreciation: Security Task Force

As in police, detective, solider, security personnel etc...

I salute their bravery, their sense of justice (might not applicable to all stated) and their hard work. Their job is never simple, is physically and mentally consuming job and what I appreciate them the most is the fact that they have chosen to place their life at the front line when dealing with the "villains".

Thanks guys! It might not be voluntary for all, but the fact that you have being trained and armed with "weapons" and own a duty of care to the public, is something worth grateful for.

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#94 Appreciation: Motivations

A motivations is just like wishes, a sincere encouragements can empower you to go the extra miles in the path you pursuing to attain that goal that you desired.

Motivations can be from a praise, a comfort, a simple text message, a short call, a FB message... Simple thing that one could have done without knowing the impact, the strength and the vibe that one has transferred.

It reflects that how influential one can be and it also reveals who are your friends that stand by your side. Never belittle the power of a compliments, consolation or a few taps on shoulder, it could simply direct the negative flow away :)

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#93 Appreciation: Tears

I never thought of tears as something to appreciate. Never thought of it.

But recently, I have bear too much of stress and pressure, my sense of responsibility took over my priorities in life, causing me to focus so much on the things that I held responsible to rather than what's important in my current stage of life.

I need a channel to release it, but not sure how. I have been grumbling/talking to friends, experiencing the crave for food etc... Nothing really help much. Until the time where I relaxed myself, watching a random dramas and variety shows, and I started tearing out of the blue. Is not that the shows are too funny or overly touching, I bet is just at that point of time, I am not that tense and all the tears and sweats that I held back was finally release...

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#92 Appreciation: The Present

Past - A paint in your life journey that last forever.

Present - A scenery that you are looking at.

Future - A daunting/exciting/adventurous/uncertain/forward-looking thoughts

I like the example that someone told me before. "Who you are today is not determine by your past, but is your future that determines who you are today. For example, after days of working, you booked a tour and you are so hype up when the tour date gets nearer because you are looking forward to the trip! However, during the tour, you dont fully enjoy yourself because you keep counting the remaining tour days and dont feel enthusiastic anymore because you are going back to your routine."

I was pretty astonish when I heard that 'theory', and couldnt against that because it is somewhat a fact. Then, one simple thing that pop up into my mind... During the present, the simplest (yet the most difficult thing to do) is to be satisfy with what I have today and what makes me today. At this time, this moment, I decide what I feel, what I think and what I do.

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Tuesday, September 10, 2013

#91 Appreciation: Confidence

Confidence and trust are inseparable. When people have faith and trust me, it will boost up my confidence in being who I am today. Confidence is a part of me that still need to be improved. I cant help but keep thinking the hurtful past that made me collapse and confidence is the thing that I am slowly recovering.

I admire people who can ignore the society perception, because they trust their capability. Not that I dont believe in myself, is just that at times, I will have self-doubt and start thinking all those energy-consuming thoughts. Is good to reflect during the doubting process, it needs to be limited so that one wont over-thinking it.

When one has the confidence, he or she will portray a better image leading to more trust being laid on them. Is a whole cycle thing, and I shall think less and BELIEVE in myself just like my friends have in me. ^^

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Monday, September 9, 2013

#90 Appreciation: Fears

I hate fear, and I really do. I dislike the fact that because of fear I dont get to achieve what I want in mind.

A quote from TinyBuddha.com, one of things to be grateful in life is fear, because:
So you know your opportunities for growth
I agree to it, and why is it so is because we should view it from a more positive sense that fears can be an indication on what one is lacking in. We might not be a perfect being in life, but one thing for sure, when we can overcome the fears we had, we will experience additional joyful moment and improve who we are today.

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#89 Appreciation: Happiness

To me, most of my happiness derive from food! Oh well, although this is not the case.

But it made me realized that small little thing in life can simple cheer one up, is up to how a person perceive things as well as the desire of getting/achieving it.

Why food? Simple thing being able to order the food that I want when dining with parents' friend, being able to get the drink that I long as part of the staff meal, being able to grab additional piece of my favourite cookies when sharing with friends...

Happiness is priceless, and most of the time it wont cost much if we can think from a different perspective. Success built on efforts, happiness built on mind/way of thinking.

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#88 Appreciation: Teachers

Teachers, especially those who deals with juniors and adolescence, are those equipped with strong mind and enormous amount of patience. They are the one who add on value to the patch we chosen and to guide us through with their knowledge and expertise. I never thought that teachers can have such impact on one's life, until I reflect and discover that who I am today is a result of my teachers faith in me.

When I was the class monitor, I was strict about the rules and always written down the name of the students who chat. I was so strict and “heartless” that portion of my classmates dislike me and complain to the homeroom teacher about it. Yet, my homeroom teacher back me up saying that "She is the class monitor, and she has the duty to make sure the class in quiet when teachers are not around. If everyone is whispering, the accumulated whisper will then become noise.". This incident made me has the strong feeling to carry out my duty in order, despite that people may dislike what I am doing. (Well, we cant please everyone in life dont we?)

Another incident is when my language teacher acknowledged my creativity via my indifferent style of writing during an essay writing competition. Because of her, I have more confidence in my creative writings and believe that I could express my view although it will be indifferent from the rest (and being against by the judging panel.)

There is always negative incidents after the positive ones - including politics and favouritism. Yet I believe due to these "lessons" and faith instil in me, I have became who I am today, a better person today.

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#87 Appreciation: Mind (Brain)

Being able to judge right or wrong (although it is ambiguous when it comes to ethics), to evaluate options, to remember, to control, to think, to express, to imagine, to calculate.....

It is one of the greatest "power" that we could get, and our brain being developed in a way that is so much stronger than most of the living creature in this world. Never belittle someone because one might not be as good as another in a certain aspect, and I believe that no one is nobody. We are definitely able to ace in one field. It could be the creativity side, or the maths, or the logical, or the analytical thinking etc.

It is the 'soul' of one living in this world ^^

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#86 Appreciation: The World (of Earth)

The world, is a mysterious 'thing' in 'life'.

Mother Nature, flora and fauna. 3 unique elements existed in the world (in this context - Earth).

How do they come about? I am always curious about this. Yet, no one can answer? Besides saying that is God's creation... Is like the universe, Big Bang theory? Who can verify? We only deduce..

P/s: My mum mentioned that I keep over-thinking, that's the reason why I always stress out. Thinking "nonsense" she said. Am I? Just appreciating the mysterious and the secrecy about our existence. LOL

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#85 Appreciation: Pair of Legs

Like my hand post, same appreciation goes to having a pair of legs.

I am much fortunate as compare to Nick Vujicic physically, but mentally he is much better than I am. I am grateful that with my legs, I am able to walk freely, run happily (well, not really, dislike running >.<), and jump madly. I have no issue with stairs, narrow lanes, bumpy road etc. It is just a pleasure to being able to lead a life with convenience.

And my absolute respect to those who overcome such difficulties in life!

Like man says, an ordinary life is a happy life.

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#84 Appreciation: Pair of Hands

I have my 2 normal hands "attached" on me since I am born :)
Thanks to my mum and my dad too for the normal genes.

Without this pair of hands, life will be tough. Is a fact, and it will then challenge my mind and soul to keep my life moving forward. Is not impossible, but though. Real tough. At times, I pity my hands and fingers... "Abuse" by myself, chipping nails, paper cuts, callus (from the extreme amount of writing) and all the cutting injuries, due to my un-feminism in dealing with kitchen stuff.

Like robot, hands just ease my life -- handling, writing, eating, cooking, bloging, washing whatever! Nothing I can do without them!

Sorry for the constant torture guys!

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#83 Appreciation: Shoes & Socks

I thought I love the cold air when comparing with the heat.. But as mentioned in my electric blanket post, not long ago I just realized that I prefer heat > cold.

I guess, is human guts feeling/intuition when come to self protection. Never can recall who invented shoes or socks, but I am relieved that such "thing" exist when I was born (what happen if I born in stone age etc? Hmmm). The capability of keeping me feet warm is depending on the materials, yet one thing for sure, these are the gadgets that have been protecting our feet from "harm", be it the rocky road or the slimy organism.. (euwww).

They let us walk freely (in a way...) ^^

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#82 Appreciation: Babies

Babies are like a piece of white cloth. White cloth that is ready to grow and discover the colourful world.
Pure and innocent. Greed for air once they born and no one can stop them from crying out loud. Is just a fascinating moment. Not to forget, mum's struggle and hardship while delivering the baby.

They symbolize hope, energy, new, youth, future... And they always react directly, being honest and true to themselves. Silently observing the surrounding and absorbing like a huge piece of sponge. That's the reason why adults need to be wary about the happenings around the baby. Babies never fail to remind me about the positive hope about being living as well as the greatness of parents to bring them to life and educate them as they grow.

Btw, arent all babies are such adorable that none of us can resist? Their sweet, cute, chubby, lil 'thing' does not fail to cheer me up (well, not when they are crying >.<)

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Saturday, September 7, 2013

#81 Appreciation: Animals

My thoughts towards animals is similar to our dear Mother Nature.

Animals survive with their animal instinct, oppose to us, whom blessed with the capability to think, to speak and to adapt in this world.

Yet, with the social structure and what we have seen over all the dramas, sometimes we have forgotten the innocences we used to have. Animals don't over-think (my guess), and they just live the way it is, being caring to their children, being loyal to their groups etc.

Animals can be consider one of the 'wonders' on Earth, alongside with plans and herbs and the great scenery we seen. They are also a good companion for us and have made the living life with more diversity~

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#80 Appreciation: Adaptability

I believe that one of the human strength is being able to adapt into different geographical area, climate, social groups and life.

It is amazing that one can survive in different countries with diverse people that have various interest in life. I dont think anyone cant go along with anything, rather, it is just one's interest and preference to do so or not. We are gifted with such ability. Unlike certain plants that only grown in tropical area or unlike animals that only survive in certain area, we human being can be found everywhere in every nook and corner in this world.

Arent we such an incredible creation? (By the God perhaps? since it is unexplainable XD)

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#79 Appreciation: Speech/To Speak

I am grateful that I can speak! *Yeah* And I dont have any speaking disorder.

I glad that I did not put my parents through all the hassle and worries by just being a normal kid, growing up to be a better person. Given that I am being brought up in a multilingual family, being able to converse, and even more, converse in different language and dialect made me a person who have another competitive edge in living in this world.

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#78 Appreciation: Desserts

To respond to Stress, here comes the desserts.

Desserts is the backward spelling of 'Stressed', so when one has burnt out due to stress, or just want to de-stress, sweet snack is the way to go -- desserts it is!

From scientific point of view, it stated that people tends to have sweet tooth when is stressful. Not sure do I act that way as well, or I am just being hypnotise by the information and act in accordance to what they claim. Yet one thing is undeniable, I do experience the sense of satisfaction after desserts (or maybe I am full?)... So desserts do have the calming effect?

But watch out for the calories T.T

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#77 Appreciation: Stress

I have to make it sounds positive.

Stress. It is not good to have none, as one will be too complacent with their current state.
Stress. It is also not advisable to have too much, as one will be drain out of energy and enthusiasm.

I constantly stressing myself that there is a never-ending learning process in this world. There are so much more to be discover and to be learn from. I am conscious about people's perception which can be a good or a bad thing to be. From the good side, I will constantly seeking for improvement opportunity whereas it could an invisible stress being exerted on me since there is too much "noise" and it takes time to cope and breathe.

Dear me, remember to take care =)

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#76 Appreciation: Seafood

I LOVE seafoods!!!
I love oyster, clam, lobsters, abalone, shrimp, salmon, mussel, fish (except the fact that there are too many bones)...

I really cant imagine what happen if I discover I am allergic to seafood after getting the taste of it... It will be so depressing...Oh well, it might sound so cruel.. But still I love seafood! Ngom ngom ngom ngom~

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Friday, September 6, 2013

#75 Appreciation: Dramas/Movies

Appreciate that this is a source of entertainment! Haha. Being reasonable here...

Although the fact is that us, as viewers/audiences is the source of their income (movie/drama production team and the acting crew), their effort, professionalism and passion should not be neglected.

I enjoy watching movies and dramas. Like the cliché saying -- Life is like a movie/drama/dream. To me, those are not only entertainment purposes, like cartoons, it reflects one's life, hope, dream and wild imagination. The storyline, complement with the production and acting crews, the end product often reminds us how far we have gone (both success and negligence) and what we have forgotten (of course, it depends on what genre are we watching as well.).

Never belittle dramas/movies... It has its way to tell its story...

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#74 Appreciation: Mobile Phones/Hand phones/ Smart Phones

Nokia - Connecting People
I love the tagline, even though Nokia has not been popular among the society, given that Samsung Galaxy and iPhone are competing in the mobile industry.

It brings me back 10 years ago, when handphone/mobile phone was a hit! Everyone of us in the school wish to have a hand phone so badly because we want to reach each other, to call each other any time any where without searching for a public stand phone that requires call card or coins.

I guess Alexander Graham Bell would be totally blown off if he is alive to see how far is invention has been innovate as time passed. I really glad that things (method to connect) have change so dramatically and have ease the communication today. The speed of change is so fast that I think even Gen Y like myself finds it hard to cope with (maybe is just for us who are not that tech savy). While we have been taking advantage of such conveniences, we also need to think about the quality of life that it brings us to...especially my concern: work-life balance and health.

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#73 Appreciation: Kindness

There is a Cantonese saying "It's kind to help, but it's also reasonable not to". This statement pinpoint that one should not take anyone for granted just because he or she "suppose to" do so. There is also a need to consider the context as well as the culture and the upbringing of oneself and the other party.

This thought train me to be independent and not to expect help from others. It might sound pathetic but looking from another perspective, it magnify one's help when they offer and I will be much grateful on what's happening and in return doing something good for the next person.

One of the simple things that touches my heart recently. I have a large package with reasonable weight that I have to retrieve from A location which take about 40 mins public transport ride from my place. After retrieving the package, I have to head to B location for a formal networking dinner. I am expecting and prepared to carry that package by myself with heels from A to B. At location A, I met with members from the same society and I kiddingly asked him a favour to help me to carry that package back. After trying to lift the package, he is fine to help me with that since he is not going to Location B (Btw, he carried the package by public transport as well.). This is an unexpected help that I am offered, and I really really appreciate his kindness in doing so as it meant quite a lot for me. At least I wont be carrying 3 bags (which I originally have with me), in a suit and heels with extra large package.

A kind offer doesn't occurs often, so never take anything for granted and thought that anyone suppose to do anything for someone.

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#72 Appreciation: Mother Nature

The amusement and the energy that one could receive from the Mother Nature, is something unexplainable and the experience is beyond describable. Could be due to my shallow vocabulary, but to narrate the beauty or the power of Mother Nature is not as easy as ABC or summarized by a few sophisticated words.

Is just like the Universe, it could be explainable in certain scientific ways but that doesnt conclude everything about Mother Nature. Just some random (meaningless?), complicated thoughts "Why does the air in the Earth, constitute approximately 20% of oxygen?""Why is there water?""How did the Mount Everest come about?"...

Mother Nature is like a mysterious woman (since is 'Mother' Nature XD), that no one can fully comprehend. We admire her beauty, and also have taken advantage of her with our innovation and technology. She give us the natural scene that we long and the ease for us to survive. She is just incredible.

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#71 Appreciation: Childhood

I love my childhood! I really do.

This show that I am a lucky girl who shared a normal childhood like most of the kids. I have experience those silly moments, those proud moments, those crazy moments which I wont be doing or I wont be able to do in my current state.

I reminisce those days... When I dance to the rhythm in public, people will praise my boldness rather than giving me a weird stare (Of course, that time I was 4 and who on earth will laugh at a chubby girl dancing to the music). When I secretly eat the cheese slice in the fridge and left traces and stains on my mouth, yet strongly said I didnt have any when being caught by my mum (giggles). When my cousin and I were so bored that we start wearing our mum's accessories and start posing and taking photos.

Looking at the photos and hearing again and again from my mum on how mischevious I was, just cheer my day. I might be wonder on and off that how different my life can be or how excititing my life will be if I am a child star or a rich kiddo.. but still, I am thankful for what I grown up with and the memories will be part of me forever .

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#70 Appreciation: Comrades

We might not enjoy the same interests or the share the same character. We might not see each other often or we might not even friends of each other.

Despite of all these differences, what we have in common is the goal (from a macro level) that we want to achieve. Regard to these group of community, I referred them as my comrades.

Comrades are important as we shared the same vibe at the moment while we are doing what that bring us together. It could be a sports game, it could be a group initiative or anything. Comrades is beyond team members. The desire and the vibe from a comrades are much stronger because we rely on each other, we encourage each other, we understand each other and we share the same emotional experience. Is not easy to form a strong bond like the solders but I am grateful to have met with people that I regarded them as comrades, which I have enjoyed the journey to attain our aim, regardless of the results.

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Tuesday, August 13, 2013

#69 Appreciation: Taste

Before enjoying the Food, I cant imagine that I have not realized the importance of taste prior to the food.

As per Smell, the ability of my precious taste buds (especially I loveeeee eating) to taste different flavour from different cuisine and delicacies is definitely life enhancer, where it just add lots of variety and spices in life as a human being.

To exhibit the importance of it, imagine what happens without the ability to taste, besides sightsmellhearing and touch  The misery should be able to explain why we should be thankful for such capability.

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#68 Appreciation: Touch

Touch is stimulating! It awakens your feeling towards an object and longings. Simple thing like soft toys make you want to hug them and mom's chapped and calloused finger make me realized that how much effort she had done to reaise us and to take care of the family.

We simply need to be grateful of touch as per the other senses including  sightsmellhearing and taste, despite that such sense make you hurt more when you fall and injured...

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#67 Appreciation: Hearing

Similar to Sight post, I should mentioned about our gifted ability to hear prior to Music and Oldies.

Without the hearing ability, the communication chain is incomplete (prior to learning of sign language and lip reading). To me, hearing is as great as the ability to see, followed by sighttastetouch, and smell. Given such gifted talent of hearing, it makes me reflect that I shall continuously improve my listening skills especially when people comment, provide feedback and even criticise for the shake of improvement in life. Not to forget, always be confident to accept praise and compliment, as we do deserve what we have contribute, is a simple way to cheer my day and boost my confidence.

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#66 Appreciation: (Able to) Smell

If I must arrange the order on the importance of the 5 senses, my first thought will be the least for smell as compare the rest like sighthearingtaste and touch.

To me, the ability to smell is an enhancer of our life. It excites us when we smell great food, and there is certain degree of seduction (?), it allows us to distinguish whether the condition (physical, environment or even food) is bad or good. It exist for a reason and often such ability present for good. Never take smell for granted, as our life could be much duller without the spice as part of our senses.

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#65 Appreciation: Sight

Should think of this prior to Colours, which is sight, our ability to look, watch, see the world.
"Eyes are the windows to one soul", yet without sight, even the windows dont open.

Hellen Keller is indescribable person, given her spirit to continue to live with disability.

I guess there are nothing much to say about why should I appreciate sight, as well as the following senses smell, hearing, taste and touch. Is just something to be grateful about, being able to see the world with colours (both objects and human) and indulge in the beauty of the mother nature.

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#64 Appreciation: Dream

Similar to creativity, dream is one of the aspect of life that most of us consciously neglect but subconsciously in the heart still longing for it. Like many said, dream (the one that you experience when you sleep) implies that your mind have been constantly think of it that it still "hunt" you down when you are sleeping. Similar to other context, dream is a goal, a state that we want to achieve, but yet to be start of or is hard to accomplish.

I have mentioned about dream in my previous post before the start of the 100 days project, and has featured a meaningful  video that discuss about how we can achieve the 'far far away land'... and one of the takeaway is to step out of the comfort zone. Easier said then done. The first step of stepping out from the complacent is often the hardest, followed by adapting it and not retracting after encountering with the first downfall/obstacle.

I realized my problem in realizing my dream... Not the first step, rather, is to sustain throughout the phase of working towards my dream (especially not being told off by the public and general perception). To all dream achiever, I salute your resilience and determination, as for those who struggle, we shall work together to reach our 'dream' (which is not going to be a dream soon!)

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Thursday, August 8, 2013

#63 Appreciation: Wishes and Blessings

In conjunction to Eid Mubarak, a festival celebrated by our Muslim friends today, it reminds me the importance of the wishes and greetings from our friends and families. It is abstract, but their presence, care and blessings, can be the best emotional and spiritual support when I am down.

Six degrees of separation. A theory describe about human connection. With this theory, apparently the we know everyone in the world, somehow directly or indirectly. Knowing is one thing, being friendly and thoughtful is another. Having hundreds and thousands of friends on Facebook, how many of them who genuinely send their regards and just wanted to know how have you been doing? How many of them remember your birthday, or even with Facebook reminder, they actually bother to wish you 'Happy Birthday'?

We cant force people to wish us, but one thing for sure, we can be grateful for those wishes that we received and be the one who care for them as well =))

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri my friends!!

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#62 Appreciation: Creativity

Creativity is precious! It is an element that lead to a different tone of life. When refer to creativity, I am not restricting it to the art sense of creativity, but rather is an ability to think on a different note.

Using creativity in a good way, most of the time, it as the domino effect of being inspirational, funny, amusement and amazement. My mum told me she used to have fun listening to what I composed when I was sitting behind the passenger seats and singing about cars, vehicles and other transport. Of course, those intuitive, on-the-spot creation ability happens to most of the kid, before we grown up and being trained to think twice.

As we become teenager, adolescence then adult, being mature is the most distinct attributes as compared to a children. Because of our ability to think and to judge, complement with the social structure, peer pressure and the realm of reality, we are consciously restricting our thoughts when we deal with things. This is not totally a bad thing, but at times, it is quite a lost that we are gradually loosing the creativity that we used to have when we are younger.

Watched an episode of Animation (yes, I am still watching 'cartoons' in the eye of adults), and it sparked me on the interpretation of Thomas A Edison's quote “Genius is 1 percent inspiration and 99 percent perspiration.”. We always interpreted it as hard work usually will be the key to success, hard work matters etc, but the coach in the animation mentioned that the quote can be implied in a mean way that "one might not be able to succeed regardless how hard he/she had tried just because he/she is lacking of that 1%" (I know it sounds really negative and mean from the word but is really funny in the context of that episode). I just found that statement being creative in the sense that it interprets in a way that not the general public will think of because all these while, we have been "instilled" to think in a certain matter.

Release the creative soul in you =)

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#61 Appreciation: Writing

I love writing, to be exact, I enjoy being able to express through words to convey message, to relate my thoughts, although miscommunication prone to happen since wirting is not embedded with tone as per verbal conversation. Well, there are input saying that we can express our words through symbols, yet is not applicable in every context.

If you have read through my previous post, I sort of repeated myself in a certain way that how much I enjoy when I received a Letter and being able to Read and Books. So I figure that writing, reading is in my soul, although when reality sets in, I tend to forgot what I am passion about. Yet writing/blogging this made me realized how long I have abandon my dream of being a renown author, writer, or even columnist -- about enjoying life and living the life in different perspective. I have to admit that my skills of expressing through words has been declining given the fact that I am not as strong willed like the successful one.

I really need to set things straight, given that this will be my final year of studies,  I shall not have other excuse of not committing in my interest thereafter...

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#60 Appreciation: Exploration

Talking about exploration, is more than physical challenge but also psychologically and emotionally.

I am ambitious, sometimes my mum said that I am overly ambitious. Well, the fault is not solely on me, but 'life' too! Because we only live once, and I dont want to regret or keep wondering how will I be if I chosen the other path.

I always love the poem by Robert Frost "The Road Not Taken". Even though we can only chose one road, but there is no harm to peek and explore for a short distance if time and resources allow. At least after we get the feel of it, then we can make a better choice.  Exploration, is just another act that made me appreciate my life more =)

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day! 
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. 

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

#59 Appreciation: Read

I always appreciate the fact that I am being born in an era where females are able to study in school and being educated.

I look at my grandma, who was being born before WW2 in a rural village. She only speaks dialect and basic common language and she cant read and write. Therefore, she seldom flip through newspaper and listen to news like my grandpa did. She has been working throughout her life, as a rubber tapper and planter, where she is being 'trained' to be as strong as men, even though she is 70+ this year. She cant stay still at home, even when she came to our house in the city. She dont enjoy TV programmes and she always find her way to do something such as house chores.

I am not pitying her, because this is what she enjoys. I somewhat felt relieve that I am sent to school to learn how to read, write and speak. I am thinking, at least when I aged, I still could communicate with the rest, write a letter and even read newspaper.

I love you grandma, stay healthy always!!!!

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#58 Appreciation: Siblings

I have one younger brother, but we hardly on a good term. Not due to something serious but mostly some childish act between us.

Our age gap is 6 years, and people thought we should be able to "live in harmony", but the fact is always the opposite. We argue over which passenger seat/back seat, we fight for the last piece of Oreo (and debating over the size of it even when we break the last piece into half). Most importantly, I care for my "rebellion-stage" brother, whom I added him as friend in Facebook, and being un-friended by him twice and blocked once in the past 3 years. Simple reason: I just advised him or mentioned something about what he posted on FB status.

Regardless how often we fight against each other, I still love him. I love flipping through the photo album and there are pictures of me hugging and cuddling him when he was a baby, paying at the swing with him, selfie with him etc. It is an undeniable fact that he is my brother and always will be. Despite all the "fights" we had, there are times where I am touched by his thoughtful act. I still can remember the first time I was abroad for 2 months and it was his birthday where I cant celebrate with him. He told mum that he wants to save a piece of cake for me until I am back, which was 1.5 months later. Although he ended up finishing it (because the cake wont last), this small lil thought actually make me cry.... He was 13 years old that year...

For now, I just hope that he can be more mature (by not rebel, disappointing others, and have more self-control) and I do look forward to be with him as a supportive family member like I always do :))))

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#57 Appreciation: Dissapointment

I have to admit, I am lost for awhile, that's the reason why I have been lagging my post for the past weeks.

Quote from anonymous "We never truly know how to appreciate something until we have lost it forever". I am grateful that I have not anything forever yet (besides youth and time, which lead me to write #43 Appreciation: Time) and hence I went to search what people appreciate in life and I found this - Disappointment.

The elaboration on this is "Disappointment - So you know the things that matter to you most" and it actually sort of echo what the quote that I mentioned earlier. Sometimes, we just didnt realize how much certain things or people matters to us and because of "disappointment" that we experienced after certain incidents, we then know that those are the things that have impact on us because we care. With such realization, we have to act, to improve or to get over it.

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Saturday, August 3, 2013

#56 Appreciation: Ethics

Ethics, a typical academic term... Yet, I cant find any word to make a replacement.

Ethics is different from moral, as the boundary of ethics is much more vague and debatable because the view of right and wrong is depending on the society and the outcome of it has much impact on the community.

I would be delighted if public view and act along with my opinion, but it doesn't mean that it is wrong or illegal if it is against. Talking about the recent issue that bothers me a lot is about unpaid work and underpaid wages. Being a newbie to the whole new career world, where the employment market is not as "bullish" as it suppose to be, thus higher labour supply. Company starts off with providing minimum pay, then decide to underpay the "employees" due to more labour supply and leads to now, providing a program where fresh grads need to pay to join the program just to secure an unpaid internship without guaranteeing future employment after 'internship'.

Is it legal for company (middle person) to initiate such program? Nope, is not illegal. In fact, is an entrepreneurial idea, entrepreneurs who saw and seized the opportunity. Yet, the fact where providing free labour to a company by charging the 'labour' a sum of fees... To me, is an oppressive act and it just merely taking advantage of fresh grads.

The message here is: despite how frustrated I am on a certain issue, the world couldnt be bother if this is not what being viewed by the society. If one morals aligned with the ethics, it would be less bothersome and much happier life one could live. Is either you change the world or you adapt with it or you get out from the zone.

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#55 Appreciation: Food/Delicacies

I LOVE TO EAT!!!

Although it may sounds stupid and cruel (since I am not vegetarian). It is so amazing that as a human being we live apart, we shared common 'human' feature yet different background, thus different cultural and of course my favourite, food!

I am thankful that we are living in earth that filled with abundance of food, resources and water  that allows us to enjoy what we had today. Single ingredient, various cooking technique and idea! All of the delicacies today can't be presented if we are lacking of various  Machineries(Cooking Utensil) and Electricity. And being able to try and taste different food from different part of the world, is really an enjoyment and 'less tiring' discovery experience.

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#54 Appreciation: 0 Choice

I am a typical Libra and I always in dilemma. Choosing a can of carbonated drinks can take me 30 minutes, imagine that. Previous post, I mentioned being blessed with options we had in life, but the world never go smoothly along our wishes.

When there is one and only way (given the different setting and context), I have no other options but to go with one and only choice. This time, the only way to go is to remain positive, and believe that there will be no regret after placing in all my effort. To add on to that, when I have no choice, ideas somewhat sparkle in my head or I am being more observant and able to detect minor flaw in the whole process!

Never feel despair even when we are left with no choices, we will somewhat learn something at the end of the day =)

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#53 Appreciation: Memories

Happy, sad, frustration, anger, rage, love, delight, cheerful, disappointment, joy... I might not remember all that I had experienced but certain part of me definitely have 'recorded' the process and hide it somewhere subconsciously, waiting for it to be rediscover.

I am amaze with how brain works and the things we remember. Tons of it without us noticing. It soothes me with all the happiness encounters when I was down, and of course there is also pains that I reluctant to recall. Regardless how bad or good our experience is, what we faced made us what a unique person we are today... The brain and the memory are a virtual recorder and tape, which is also a virtual player that allows you to replay before the end...

While you still can remember and capacity, do create and collect all the memories that you had, reminisce and cherish the moments...

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#52 Appreciation: Electricity

BLACKOUT!

I think I will get used to it in the past but not today. Given the privilege to use computers, mobile phones, WiFi... I just doubt that I can live without electricity supply. I recall the days where we experienced sudden blackout at night.... Back then, a bunch of us (the kiddos) will be so excited (although we cant watch Cartoon Network). Why? Because we can play with fire candle(Woops)! Those days, we can only light up candles during birthday celebration or lantern festival, other than that, those candles were kept far from us. Beside lighting the candles, that is also the time where we "cook" (the grass and burn paper and insects) and
not to forget the paper fan that we handmade...

*Back to topic*

With electricity, our life has ease so much and convenient. We have light at night, heater during winter, fan and air-conditional when we feel hot and heaps more. Especially in public area, we just consume as much electricity that we feel like. "We are paying others for our convenience, and because we pay, so we tend to forget the need of conserving it." Quoting the sentence from one of the celebrity in a reality show, and I cant agree more than that. The selfish nature in us lead us to act that way, without remembering the electric generators and the harm towards the mother nature...

Food for thought "How much energy we need to consume and how much we can save?"

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#51 Appreciation: Machineries/Gadgets/Devices

Currently, I am watching a Korean reality-variety program "The Human Condition", which featured 6 comedians to challenge a week of the given theme and the theme is usually relates to the conveniences we get today or things we forget. They have done plenty issues, include living without mobile devices, TV and computers, living without water, finding true friends, living without cars etc.

One day as I was watching the episode, it hits me when one of the comedian highlighted the fact that machinery/gadgets today have provided us so much ease as compared to previous. From grill to toaster, from natural dry to hair dryer, from cooking in a pot to pressure cooker, from cloth to sponge mop etc

Is interesting to see how we aged and the world evolved....and 'time' is the only one who witnessed and recorded such changes.

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#50 Appreciation: Imagination

Imagination is a powerful tool for future!

I am unsure since when I came across the idea that relates imagination with cartoon and linked it to future (today is the future of the past). An illustration will work best in describing what I am trying to convey =)

Robotic machine does not come across people's mind in reality in the past as robotic are just images featured in cartoons for kids and teens. However, because of the cartoonist or animation creative production team that have this kind of ideas, it inspired / urged the talent in other industry to work on this and make it feasible for us today.

So never underestimate kids-related matters, be it toys, cartoons/animation, drawing etc, because the imagination that links to them often will exist in the future for the good of mankind =)

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#49 Appreciation: Non-Mainstream

Human are social animals, and most of us have the habits of going with the flow - the herd mentality. Unless we are limited by resource or in a different context, then we will opt for other options. Nothing wrong about being influenced by others or following the trend, same towards for those who chose to not be in the main stream industry.

Take an example, students' choice of university for the their further study. Given that there are no financial worries, most of the students will decide to go to the prestigious and higher ranking uni. It is a rational choice. Then students will start their social life with a group of friends from similar backgrounds if not same.

However, I came across this guy who choose a different path from the rest. He went to a uni which is known by public, but not a popular choice, hence it was a total stranger place to him. He stood out from his comfort zone and be part of the international student council. He have met more people and achieved more compared to his peers who go with the flow and hang out with the same click of friends.

He inspired me to start wondering, "What's wrong with going against the flow? You might just end up with something totally new and succeed in it!"

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Wednesday, July 24, 2013

#48 Appreciation: Letter

Saw a FB post today, about a teacher cried after receiving a letter from her student after she left the school (which located at a rural area)... A letter, is a fruit of thoughts and sincere appreciation.

In this modern era, letter is not perceived to have much value...because
1. It cost money - postage and evelope
2. It is slow
3. It is usually notification or bills
People today prefer to email, message and call - which all of these can be achieved much faster and obtained prompt reply when compared to a letter.

But with a letter, it shows affection, thought, effort, expression and more. It is a slower process (undeniable), at least we put in much more effort (even when we dont know how to spell a word, we will check the dictionary because we dont want the letter to reflect bad on us - due to spelling error). We 'decorate' the letter with picture, cursive writing, we are more expressive (as we can take our time to write down our feelings and thoughts.)

Is hard to receive a pure greeting letter, so ever since I am in my uni years, I start to collect all letter received by mail from friends. A delicate evidence of our friendship..once upon a time... (now only FB msg...)

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#47 Appreciation: Ups

Life is fill with ups and downs...(Part 2)

The ups in life is all about happiness, cheerfulnesssuccess, achievements, delight surprise and all the positive vibe! But be reminded that there are they not to make one arrogant, to think as if one is better than the rest. Rather they exist to let us reflect and be thoughtful, be grateful and appreciate what we have today. It could be a paid off effort, or a call from your besties, a surprise birthday, a celebration, and even a simple thing of having my own set of lego...

Be content with what I achieved as long as I have given my best. :))))

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#46 Appreciation: Downs

Life is fill with ups and downs...

No matter how painful, regretful, hurtful, bitter, sad the downs are (in my life), they are there with a purpose... To amplify the sweetness that we going to harvest in future. :)

From another view, disappointments made you/me realized what you treasure the most, and will definitely make you/me treasure it from this point, and be a better self :)

Cheer up my dear self!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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#45 Appreciation: Betrayal

*This is going to be the shortest post ever!*

It hurts, especially when someone (closest to me) betrays me, but then at least I know, this person is no longer worth being with.

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Saturday, July 20, 2013

#44 Appreciation: Nag

When anyone nags... ARGH~~

All the message has been repeatedly mentioned over and over and over again!

I know, is irritating! Especially when one overly nag, or when you are not in the mood or when you are impatient... Like my mum, who always remind me to sleep early, have proper meals, to return home early yada yada yada.

Come to think of it, this might be someone's character, but most of the time, people nag because they care and they concern about you. They worried if you forgotten something or being in an unpleasant situation, hence the keep reminding you. When is from parents, you know that they care, when is from colleagues or team mates, you know that they concern about the outcome of what you have done. So even though I always hear the same thing from the same person (with the possibility of being annoyed by them), still, is good to know that they care. Imagine one day none of the people bother to know what you are doing and ignore your situation... Is pretty sad (to feel abandon) XD

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#43 Appreciation: Time

Time to live, time for adventure, time to spent with someone I love and time to do something meaningful.

I always find time is insufficient for me. One might think that I am bad with time management? Well, I dont really agree with that (although I do procrastinate from time to time). I think I got ambitious and take time for granted. To me, time is a scare resources, and whenever I have spare time, I tend to go beyond and volunteer to do more and end up keep myself overloaded. Then, when things crashes together, that is the period where I usually stress up and tense up and murmuring and mumbling and  complaining that I have not enough time for myself to do things that I want. Simple thing like sleep. Worse still, stress --> sleep deprive/ eat --> gain weight --> health ...

So never thing time/youth for granted! Is my time to reconsider my capacity when doing things... regardless how tempting the opportunity is...

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#42 Appreciation: Trust

Trust is something cant be value in monetary terms, especially those who trusted each other yet not taking it for granted.

Trust is about having faith in someone, relying and believing that the person can be count on, and giving wholeheartedly that he or she will be there to back you up. Trust is about giving out your heart, hope, energy to someone. Due to this TRUST that comes from the bottom of the heart, that's the reason why betrayal hurts.

Thank you for those who have faith in me, entrusted me and supported me throughout my life journey. I sincerely hope that I have live up to expectation, as a family member, friend, colleague and as a citizen =)

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Friday, July 19, 2013

#41 Appreciation: Sun

Weather has been weird lately in Sydney.... as if is like Melbourne, where sunny during the day and suddenly it rains during mid day... Weird...

In scientific terms, the sun is the source of energy, elements for photosynthesis etc...
For poetry, the sun is the symbol of hope and passion...
As for the ordinary one, we just want a day out, and just pray hard that it wont rain. =)

Nevertheless, a sunny day just made me feel energetic! And is always a good weather to spend your time outdoor as long as is not burning hot. Here's a friendly reminder, have your sunscreen with you! Skin cancer has been on the top list for some time.

P/s: I know right... when it rains, we want sunny day; when is hot, we hope that it rains... What a contradicting human being we are XD

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#40 Appreciation: Travel

When there is a chance and capacity to travel, I will definitely be there, regardless how big or how far the place will be, domestic or internationally.

Travelling is the time where I not only able to discover how massive this world is, and it is also be a self-discovering journey, where I realize that I am such a fortunate person and I am able to find the strength to empower myself to do more. I regard this as the mystery of travelling. I can feel the aura and it motivates me to go beyond, to break through! And I need to do it before the invisible push disappear. My guess to why this happens is because I am out of my daily routine, and travelling is the time to explore, and to absorb something new, no matter how frequent the you have been the place (Not that often until such travelling is part of your daily chores).

To be able to travel seems a minor thing. One could just pay the travel agent and let them have everything sorted out. But I think the effort of making this effort (to research, to book, to decide the destination) is something one should applause. Then, the time where one is experiencing the journey will be the fun time that filled with amusement! The last bit of the journey is about self-reflection, making decision after discovering the differences... also, the sweet unique memory that you and only you have engraved in your life.

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Thursday, July 18, 2013

#39 Appreciation: Opportunity

With economy not doing well, unemployment rate is one of the common issue arise within the community. Even when companies are recruiting, they often want to cut of the training cost and wish the candidate to work efficiently and effectively. They want a high ROI.

But hello~~~~ Every year there are heaps of fresh graduate from the university, and depending on their background, not all of them will have work experience! Is just like a simple egg and hen question, which come first? If the employer dont give the opportunity to a fresh graduate, the fresh graduate will not be able to gain experience, and without experience, how are they going to work or being promoted? One looks for job to get experience but the job is seeking for people with experience. This cycle thing is driving me nuts!

That is just an example that I illustrated. Regardless which kind of opportunity that I am referring to, I am always grateful for the chance given, even with simple thing, an opportunity to do something that I have not experience, to meet a total stranger, to attend some functions that is out of my comfort zone. There is a saying "Opportunity is available to those who are ready.", and my question is, who determined the state of readiness? Chance and opportunity does not solely depend on one's state, but it also rely on the availability in the context. I regard Opportunity as  "Luck + Readiness", so just be ready and when we are ready, is all depends on when the luck arise. Saying this, luck is not something controllable by anyone, any device anything. Just need to be thankful when the lucky star shines on you :)

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#38 Appreciation: Smile

Smile is one of the beautiful thing in the world. No matter what do one looks like, when he/she smiles, it will make him/her the prettiest and good looking person in the world! =)

Why smile? One might ask.
Why not smile? I asked back.

Well, it is true that there are various implied meaning can be interpret through smile, but in general, smiling is an expression of polite, delight, happiness and fun. This also can be consider as facial exercise too! When frustration and anger is brothering me and I am so tensed up, a person's smile can somehow cool me off and giving me a sense of tranquillity. So lets try to smile when we are affected by negative vibe (Although I often forget about that, need to work this out!)

Surprisingly, a stranger smile can make your day and similarly if they give you a cold response your mood will also be affected by that response. Well, at least to me, it will. And I will start wondering is there something wrong with my action, or what am I being treated so etc.

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Sunday, July 14, 2013

#37 Appreciation: Sports

My mom always said that I don't exercise. I beg to differ. Well, it is true that I don't enjoy gym, running etc, those that I can do it alone. I felt so lonely, and is sort of boring.

But I enjoy sports! I love the fact that playing in a team or playing against someone, make me thrill and excited. Like netball, is about team play, the chemistry and the cheer from your comrade! In sports, it is also about the competitiveness, the focus and strategy! It is much more than the usual exercise and running on a treadmill and cycling...

To add on, I recently watched a sports variety show and the amateurs explained the tactics the 'mechanism' behind the sports which make me realized that sports are more than what we seen (if you are not into that certain events). For instance, the middle section of the bowling alley is quoted with oil, to allow the ball to curve and hit the pins! He also mentioned about different angles, the spins, the formation etc. I am absolutely amazed!!

So what I had watched in the anime "The Prince of Tennis" are not exaggerate in anyway....Hmmm... Interesting!

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Friday, July 12, 2013

#36 Appreciation: Cartoons/Animations

If I love watching animation, does it make me immature? Maybe? Maybe not. Life is full with ups and downs, and the reality has always been a cruel 'thing'. Silly cartoons not only allow me to distress and cheer me up, it also gives me hope at times.

Why cartoons? As mentioned, life is filled with uncertainty and the fact of life is that nothing is perfect. So my perception is, why keep watching those "sad" movies while this has been the norm, we should watching something that brings hope that make us longing the future XD

I especially enjoying watching humorous and meaningful animations/cartoons. It is true that the cartoons are designed for the kids, allowing them to learn the lessons behind the story. I dont think cartoons are limited to children, but for us, adults as well. It somewhat reminds me what are the basic things that we tend to forget as we grow older... Simple thing, like relationship with family, staying positive, and evil always defeated by the good at the end of the day.

May our lives as what shown in these animations, and we can live happily ever after =)

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Thursday, July 11, 2013

#35 Appreciation: Heater/Electric Blankets

I worship the inventor of heater and electric blankets!! I  never thought that I will appreciate their invention that much, until I have experience winter!

I am a person who sweat easily, so I dislike heat and hot weather! I love semi-cloudy days, when you still enjoy a lil of sunshine under the cooling cloud. When given a choice to stay in a desert or north pole, I used to prefer the latter. Not until when I am here... I realized that I cant withstand cold weather, my body just cant take it... The heater and electric blankets have saved me from most of the suffering... Really! They are literally my life saviour XD (although they gonna cost me lots of bombs)

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Wednesday, July 10, 2013

#34 Appreciation: Rain

A week ago, it was quite hazy back home, due to the neighbouring country who has been doing illegal burning etc. Recently there are articles published that those open burning are not done by the locals but companies owned by Malaysians and Singaporean, hence is not the Indonesian fault etc. Hackers even hacked into various MYs and SGs website (redirect to the page?) and modified the content stating that Indonesian should not be blame and is MYs and SGs being unlucky due to the weather and geographic location.

It was so serious that the unhealthy index reached to the highest point Singapore have experienced, and so many schools have to be closed down because the index indicated that the air was so unhealthy and it was dangerous to stay outdoor. Worse still, the haze and dust particles trap all the heat, and without rain, the temperature will just continue to shoot up!

Thank God after a few weeks of torture by the-chocking-dusty-air, a huge down pour finally washed away all dust and heat.

I know that raining is a "bad weather" on normal days, because we have to avoid getting wet and have to go through all the trouble of drying ourselves. Still, after rain, that's our chance to see the rainbow isn't? =)

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Tuesday, July 9, 2013

#33 Appreciation: Waste Collector

Similar to the previous post, waste collector is another occupation that we should pay our respect to. It is tough to work under the hot sun or heavy rain, in addition to the high labour/physical demand job. Not to mention, the waste and bins that they are dealing with.

I still can recall during Chinese New Year, back home, my grandmother used to give them "red packet"/angpao, as appreciation for what they have done. I believe their contribution should be recognise although they are being paid for their work, since this job is not highly sought due to the work condition.

There are also a few touching stories about those waste collector. I came across the article about a waste collector, who found a purse by the roadside, was constantly seeking assistance from the public and  taxi driver to contact the owner of the lost purse. Once the owner (a university student) arrived, he even shelter the student with his umbrella while he was exposed to the rain. With this, it concluded the 2 hours long of lost-and-found process. This incident occurred back in 2010, and I believed that there are more similar incidents that remain unreported. This guy is just one of the many the unsung heroes.

P/s: I also understand that not all people is as honest/helpful as him. But is always good to stay positive isnt?
Original news article here

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Monday, July 8, 2013

#32 Appreciation: Waitstaff

Given the options to choose between an office job and wait-staff job, I am guessing most of us would definitely select the former? Given the fact that the former paid is usually higher compare to the latter. Yet, it is still possible that people are just enjoying servicing people.

To earn additional expenses (for bubble teas, dining out, movies etc) and my travelling plans, I have to work my butt off for that additional cost that I need to incur, and I realized that being a waitstaff is not as easy, stress-free as what people usually thought. Besides the running and serving, waitstaff have to clean the table and the food waste, clean and dry the cutleries etc. In a day, I realized that waitstaff cant live without hand lotion, if one can afford to have it.

Often not, waitstaff got all the "scolding" and complaining from the customer, when at times is not their fault. When the food is not out, when the order is wrongly entered (due to poor handwriting by the customer themselves - for self-ordered restaurant chain), when there is long queue, when there is lack of floor staff, when there is a spill... Regardless the incident happens is the fault of the wait staff or not, they are the one who usually will get the target.

To all customers who paid for to dine in for the food and ambience, please be considerate and be patience (in particular during peak hours), waitstaff dont deserve poor treatment when they work so hard for it...

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Sunday, July 7, 2013

#31 Appreciation: Competitors

This is a love-hate relationship.

Love it is because with their presence, one only can feel the urge to do more, to improve, to be better. Like people always said, it is good to have some sort of pressure in order to perform, to evolve and creating a better environment and innovation.

Hate it is because of the pressure as well. When the stress exist, one can either win it or lose it. Even worse, competing in the event which you are not wholeheartedly into. This will turn up to be a negative force rather than a motivation for one to move forward.

I am loving the success, hating the failure (or to be precise, the consequences of failing).
Competitors, a two-edge sword huh...

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Saturday, July 6, 2013

#30 Appreciation: Music

What will happen to the world in the absence of rhythm, beats and music...

Music, is not my expertise. I never able to catch up with the rest when reading the notes when playing music instruments nor to differentiate the octave and notes, even though I like to sing. I am grateful that I can hear the sound and listen to the music. Although I am not really into this industry, I do appreciate how the music industry have motivate us, entertain us, heal us or even act as a tool for us to release our frustration.

I came to a foreign land alone, and was quite despair due to a huge misalignment of expectation. I thought I will have fun and mix along with all different people, unfortunately it is not happening in reality. I so happen to come across Kelly Clarkson's Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You). It sort of comfort my loneliness, give me strength to continue to work towards my expectation and keep me motivated to step out. Loving this song until now....



Friday, July 5, 2013

#29 Appreciation: Water

I am a "drinker"... specifically referring to water. I dehydrate very fast, and I sweat a lot... I am born this way... Our body compose of 70% of liquid and we need to drink at least 8 glasses of water (approx 2 litre) per day to keep ourselves hydrated and carry out our daily routine. To me, I need for than 2 litre. I used to drink 2 litre per half day and my parents are quite worried because of this. They afraid that my kidney cant handle such huge amount of water and the kidney might be damage as both kidneys have been continuously filtering the water etc. Not sure which kind of test need to be taken to examine whether my kidneys are function normally, but normal blood test result seems Ok..

I still can recall back in 1997 during the haze season, everyone was encouraged to drink more water. But to worsen the situation, it was not been raining for quite a long time and the air was so dusty and dry. I think the water reserve was dried up and there was not water supply in the state. No water for drinking, bathing, cooking, washing... It had been a nightmare for many of us. The government ended up sending tanks of water to each neighbourhood and we will take all the bucket and bin we have just to queue for water.

I consider that year was one of the year where people suffered a lot. Until today, I still feel how fortunate to have water supply (even better, clean water supply) to be used and drink. Every single drop counts!

*ps: really hate it when there is not enough water and ended up with an ulcer!

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Wednesday, July 3, 2013

#28 Appreciation: Sleep

Since we are young, we most of us tend to stay awake till late night, regardless how often the elderly advise us to rest early and have a good night sleep. Like my mom, she reads lots of health magazine and almost everyday, she reminds me to sleep early (because human body starts to detox around 11pm) before she goes to bed (about 10pm). Being a stubborn youngster, I just nod and continue with my assignments, work, dramas, blogs etc.

I understand the consequences of not having enough sleep or not sleeping early. The effects of having sleep debt are aged looks, slower response, blank, headache, low focus and concentration, excess acid etc. I bet lots of us know about it but we cant be bother to practise the habit because we have lots of things to deal with, we want to have fun and more. When it reaches a busy period (eg closing, assignment, exam), we sacrifice more sleeping time and we thats the time where we feel like, having time to sleep and rest is such a "luxury"... Yet, after those period, we are back to the square. I guess, we only be grateful for the sleeping time when we are force to stay awake rather than voluntarily being a night owl.

I want to sleeeeeeeeep! (Need to make it a habit to sleep earlier... sigh)

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Tuesday, July 2, 2013

#27 Appreciation: Books

Reading is one of my hobbies, and it is one of the hobbies that I used to "addicted" into. I mostly read fictional story about relation (ie friendship, family, romance etc) and I can read for hours and hours due to the suspension and the climax of the novel.

Even if I had watched a movie, which its storyline is based on a novel, I will still prefer to re-read the book rather than watching the movie. Unless the casting members are my favourite and I am their die-hard fans (which I will keep re-watch the movie) or I am just lazy to read. I feel that through reading, I can simulate the scenario with heaps of pictures running across my head. Read, process, and imagine, rather than solely depending on my receiving the image through my eyes.

Of course, when I refer to books, it does not only limited to fiction books but inclusive of all kind of genre depending on one's interest. To produce a quality and content rich book, it is not that easy as lots of editing need to be done. I am not as expressive as the writers, so I always amaze with how they describe a context and lead the readers to the heart of the story. Reading is just an stimulating journey as it brings me across the nation, differentiating various personality, understanding the differences of the world and inspiring my world.

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Monday, July 1, 2013

#26 Appreciation: Oldies

Oldies, the forever lasting songs that most people enjoy! Love the soothing rhythm, meaningful lyrics, unfortunately the frequency of radio station playing these songs has significantly reduce. The oldies contain shared memory between my parents' memory/generation with me, as I grow up listening to to what they listen.

Those singer like The Carpenters, BeeGees, The Corrs and lots more, which I cant remember the name, but the rhythm of the songs. It has been such a long time I have not been tuning into the same channel as my dad, ever since I have "grown up" and hanging out with friends, listen to the idol song rather than spending those time with my dad and mimicking the singer on stage with a broom as mic. While I was writing the previous post, I realized that it has been so long I have not listen to the oldies...

What I miss out, is not only the beauty of those song, but also the childhood days, when I spend my dream (as singer) with my family, reminiscing those warm-hearted moment as a child... Oldies, songs that last for generations, also a reflection of the precious moment with family, filled with love, that similarly lasting.

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Sunday, June 30, 2013

#25 Appreciation: Love

Love, something everyone could relates to, it is a strong feeling of affection.

Love is abstract, and the only way to 'detect' it, is to feel it, or witness through the actions drive by love.

Love is priceless. None of us is obliged to love someone, so never take one's love for granted. Instead, be grateful that they have show such affection to you, they concern and care.

Because they love you, they continue to do something that against your likes, just because they thought what they did is the best for you. Even though you dont like what have been done, be rationale and understand the reasoning behind, rather than blindly fighting back.

Because they love you, they have been extremely patience and show such high endurance, but please dont be such extreme and overstep the border, just because they extended it for you.

Feel the love, Treasure the love, and Share the love.



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#24 Appreciation: Perseverance

Determination and perseverance, attributes that worth for me to further improve in. I am not as strong-will in certain aspect but I believe I will gradually improve as long as I desired it so badly. I am a person that prefer certainty, so I always want to get things laid out properly and being planned in advance. I cant wait, which makes me wanted to know the end result as quickly as possible, although I do procrastinate a little especially during the stress out/burn out period, and I tend to get distracted a lil.

That is the time my will is being challenged, to focus or to relax. I also discover that when I am nervous or fear, I will be distracted and to do some other items. Focus, focus, focus! The more I want, it seems further apart. It stroke me so badly when I watched the movie "The Green Lantern" (I am quite a late adopter).

"Fear is the enemy of will. Will is what makes you take action; fear is what stops you, and makes you weak... makes your constructs feeble."
"You must ignore your fear. When you're afraid, you can't act - you can't act, you can't defend - you can't defend, you die!"
Such beautiful quotes just continuously echoing inside my head and it made me realized that my will is not strong enough because I afraid I fail. I cant maintain my diet/exe, because I afraid that even though I tried I still dont get obvious result. I start to doubt about all my actions and efforts and I fear to not live up to expectation. I self analysed about my past and I found that my failure in my Standard 3 (Year 6) had made fear of failure to live up to one's expectation. That could be the reason that the further I go, the possibility for me to stop and not completing it (avoidance?). Now that I realized, I want to step out of it, train myself to be more strong willed, and challenge myself to be confident and succeed in it.

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Saturday, June 29, 2013

#23 Appreciation: Bed

My favourite part of the house is none other than my room's bed! I love to flip and roll around the bed, and being the only daughter in the loving family, my parents granted my wish of having a queen size bed all by myself :) Awesome!

I am grateful that I am sleeping on a bed with a good mattress, a place where I can curl up in my blanket and  warm myself in the rainy days. Being able to sleep on a comfy bed ease the problem of backache and discomfort of sleeping on the floor. The bed may seem insignificant, but it is a luxury furniture to have to some people as they sleep on a wooden plank floor with a matt, or even just a spring-less mattress. Having a  proper rest is important as it will affect my performance (and me being emotional) if I dont get a proper rest. So, to my bed (+ mattress and blanket)...

Lots of hugs and kisses!! Please do continue to provide your full support and replenish my energy for the next day with a good night sleep :)

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Friday, June 28, 2013

#22 Appreciation: Colours

Do I have a favourite colour? I used to say BLUE... As I grow older, I realized that I dont really have a specific colour that I indulge in, rather, I prefer colour tone that comes in harmony in colour. I love the colour palettes! So many colour harmoniously blend together and giving you a different dimension, even it is white to grey then black!

I enjoyed the vibrant colour, there are so alive, filled with grace and hope. This is how I view colours. Others also mentioned that colours can be your tool to express your emotions! Even though I dont really think it is effective, besides the jinx of wearing a certain colour that will be luck XD.

I am still into colouring although I am long away from my primary school years! I couldnt imagine what can our life be if everything is monotonous, dull and colourless.

Literately, colours also symbolized what we did! I remembered that there is a quote or a metaphor stating that life started of as a piece of white paper/ newly born baby is as innocent as a piece of white paper (well, it depends of how good the manufacturer bleach it *joking*), and it all depends on us, who will be the one painting the white paper with colours that we desire. Thus, I dont single colour can content me any more, I want my life to be as multi colour as possible!

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